Thursday 6 August 2015

Stage 2 - Data Collection

I'm trying to stay as calm as possible and focus one day at a time, but when reality sets in, I feel everything: anxiety, excitement, nerves, pressure and joy. 
~Shawn Johnson~


Some days I am so uncertain; uncertain that I made the right move or took the right fork in the road. Then I have to say to myself – ‘Well there is no turning back now so get on with it and learn from it.’ Then there are other days where I am so happy with the turn I took that I wonder where the uncertainty came from because I am absolutely certain I will make it to the end of the road somehow happy with my journey.

Well with all that being said I am enjoying my data collection. First I am happy just because I am actually doing data collection, I wasn’t sure I was going to make it this far at some point but I did!! Secondly, I have met or spoken to some pretty amazing and adventurous people. I guess another thing that I am enjoying, is that I get to explore the ‘why’ of these adventurous peoples’ behaviour and particularly why they are so different from me :) Wonderful!!! Thirdly, I am having to step out of my comfort zone and go to some lengths I didn’t anticipate  to find participants for this first stage of the data collection (as demonstrated 2 blogs ago) so I am learning more about myself and what I am willing to do to succeed.

Something else that has come from being at a different stage of my research is the discovery of it all. Did I mention that this means that I am not currently reading literature! A huge thumbs up – and yes I know I have to go back but I am not doing it now… and I have drifted. Back to the point – the fact that I am taking all those months of reading and shaping it into something that I can present as my own is overwhelming, satisfying and comforting if only because I have gotten so far.


Moreover, there is also this school of thought that you have to come into research with a passion for your subject matter. Hey! I don’t debate that that works and I am sure many a successful body of research is completed when the researcher starts the process with an intense passion. However, I am learning that, as with some other things in life, passion can develop later in the research process. One cannot develop a passion for something unless you have been exposed to it in some way, and heaven knows that what I have settled on researching I only became aware of very recently but that does not mean that I am not enjoying learning about it, revelling in my development and soaking it all up like a sponge. I am collecting data!!! Sound de horn!!!!




Friday 24 July 2015

The Lion King – an explosion of colour

Hakuna Matata :) 


Before someone cuts off my fingers because I have taken too long to type this review on The Lion King at the Lyceum Theatre in London, here it is. I have had very mixed feelings about writing this blog about my feelings on the musical version of The Lion King because I have only ever heard very good things about it; and although I enjoyed it and there are elements of it that were wondrous it just did not match Wicked for me.

Now let me explain that statement. The Lion King on stage is brilliant, beautiful and it is clear why it won awards for best costumes. It is amazing to watch something you have seen in an animated format brought to life on stage. It must be particularly hard on the actors because everyone (well maybe only almost everyone) has some measuring stick to judge you against when they sit to watch the musical. One of the first things you have to admire was that they stayed true to the plot and script as much as was possible, but it also meant that very little was a surprise when it came to the script except the few changes that kept you awake.

There is no way to describe how the use of colour, stage, costumes, entrances and exits and the theatre in general brought this musical to life. The cast were throughout the theatre at various stages of the production making the audience feel more involved in what was happening. At some points in time you had no idea where to look because there was something happening in the aisles, something on the stage or something on the level above you that you needed to see.

To illustrate my point, another thing that made my experience even more enthralling was that I went to a matinee show near the end of the school term so you can imagine the number of children in the theatre. At the very beginning of the production when the noise level was really high I figured it would settle eventually but they seemed to be taking too long even in my estimation so I looked back to see what was keeping them that buzzed and there was this elephant meandering down the aisle. I felt like a child in my own reaction; I believe my mouth dropped open and then I settled into a huge smile. Throughout the production you could not stop admiring how the cast embodied the animals they were representing, they were lithe, accurate (is that the right word?), just beautiful. You cannot fault the production when it comes to this; it was just amazing. It takes talent and creativity to figure out what the costumes would look like and how they would be moved in the first place, but it also took talent, creativity and style just to make the use of them so believable and captivating.

Similar to the costumes was the stage; the stampede scene was brilliant, how they did that on stage was just remarkable. The stage’s rises and falls, movement and flexibility for the various elements that they had to portray rose to the challenge and in some cases exceeded your expectations for what could be done with stage. It is important at this point to remind my readers that I am still a baby in the musical world so my feelings could be influenced by the novelty of the whole thing for me.

However, the singing and music although very good just did not touch Wicked’s for me, and you would imagine as a singer that that particular element would be more important to me. That being said, for me, Rafiki was the highlight of the show when it came to this aspect of the production, with her powerful voice and commanding presence; her character and her singing were excellent!!!

Also of note for me were the drums, African dance and those little elements that reminded me of home which not only added to the authenticity of the production but made me feel happy. It was also great to see cast members from not only Barbados but Jamaica and St. Vincent, woohoo!!!!


Another great experience under my belt! Another reason to smile! Another dream realised!!


Thursday 16 July 2015

Looking for participants - Detailing my criteria

Data, I think is one of the most powerful mechanisms for telling stories. I take a huge pile of data and I try to get it to tell stories. 
~Steven Levitt~

A little background
I am in the more exciting part of my PhD process; the data collection phase. Well I guess I should say that it is the more exciting part of the process for me, but why it is exciting for me is another blog which is currently off to the editor. 

At this first stage of my data collection, I am having short chats with persons about why they engage in activities with service brands online. That seems simple enough to me, because all you ever hear is how much time everyone spends online. Well let me tell you that finding persons that meet my very interesting criteria is not as easy as it sounds. It proves especially difficult when I start to get confused about who I am looking for (shame). My confusion leads to more confusion and therefore leads to interviews with delightful people who I really want to include in my study but who get the no no no from my supervisor. My poor supervisor, who is of late having a dandy time trying to keep my enthusiasm from sweeping me along with the tide :) 

This blog is therefore a simple way for me to let you guys know who I would like to chat with.  Honestly, the chats are not too long, pretty painless and can be done face to face or online if we are too far apart or if it is more convenient, according to the wants and needs of the individual. 

The criteria

So... I am looking for individuals who are: 
  • Active on Facebook and/or Twitter 
  • Follow or like service brands such as hotels, restaurants, pubs, bars, salons etc
  • Tweet about any service brands using their handle and/or
  • Post to any service brand's Facebook page
Unfortunately I am not looking for individuals who: 
  • are Active Bloggers
  • are Professional Reviewers
  • only Check in at locations on Facebook or Instagram without any other interaction
Like I said, I know it is not the easiest to follow so I have a few pics to illustrate what I mean. 
An appropriate tweet can look like the pic to the left here.

While an example of an appropriate post on Facebook would appear on the service brand's Facebook page. It would fall under the posts to page section on the left of the Facebook page as circled in the following illustration. It could also appear in the reviews section of the service brand's Facebook page also circled in the accompanying illustration.


If you meet this criteria, or you have a friend who meets this criteria and is willing to have a chat with me whether face to face or online please contact me using the following information:

Email address: tara.goddard@strath.ac.uk
Twitter Handle: @taraagoddard

I am happy to speak to anyone who speaks English and meets the criteria that I have tried to clearly outline in this blog!

As the challenges of my PhD journey continue, I try to collect the data that will allow me to tell the stories of the customer...


 

Friday 19 June 2015

A Fun & Interesting Experience - Magna Carta



I recently had the pleasure of a short trip to give me a little break and enjoy the musical, The Lion King, in London. However this blog is not about the Lion King; I will post that next time. Today, I believe it is fitting that I start with my first activity while in London - viewing the exhibition which has been put together to celebrate the 800th anniversary of the Magna Carta.

Now honestly, History was never one of my strong points. I remember History at CXC (O level examinations run by the Caribbean Examinations Council); more accurately I remember that I sat the examination. I honestly remember little else, it was a choice between that and Geography and I thought I would fare better with History ... Ah Well :) I should however point out that I did enjoy my History classes and do not regret doing it, I had a dynamic and interesting teacher who was so passionate about the topic that he inspired you to be interested and do well. I passed so he had to be pretty damn good.

So I set off to see this exhibition because I figured I wasn’t staying too far from the British Library and it would kill some time. I would see some statues and stuff, look at some material on this thing I knew nothing about and be out in a couple of minutes. Well maybe going in with such low expectations was a good thing and then maybe again it could be said that the British Museum put me firmly in my place. I was wowed! I thoroughly enjoyed the exhibition for so many reasons, that I had to buy a book to make notes so that the old memory would get them all in the blog.


First, the exhibition started with a short video which ran every couple minutes and gave you a synopsis of what was to come and an overview of what the Magna Carta was, which naturally leads to one of my favourite parts of the exhibition. It was not just an exhibition of old documents and stuff, it included video, historical documents and books, cartoons or sketches, teeth and a thumb bone (I am still trying to get over this), interviews with modern leaders and experts in the area of law and history, pottery, figurines, a teapot, advertisements, posters, paintings, speeches, swords, presentations.  Oh my goodness it was such a mix of media and ways to learn that it reminded me of putting together an effective class for students who all learn differently, it hit all the notes necessary for auditory and visual learners although you really couldn’t touch anything for obvious reasons you still felt very connected.


I was very impressed with how the exhibition was put together in that it started with a history of King John: you found out who he was, something about the times he lived and what led to the development of the Magna Carta, and were taken right through to the recent uses of the Magna Carta and what it means to current users and some influential people. Not being too keen on History (or so I thought) the fluidity (best word I could think of) of the presentation of materials and information was excellent, natural as it little by little developed your interest in the topic and keep that interest to the end. However, by the end of the exhibition, what felt like a comfortable hour and a half or so I was a little overwhelmed with so much information but it was certainly a good overwhelmed.

Another thing that stood out but had nothing to do with the exhibition really was the frequent use of an F for S in older documentation for instance the US Bill of Rights heading spelt Congress Congrefs. I noticed this again at the British Museum the following day it makes for interesting reading of documents if you try to understand what they were saying. It was also fun trying to muddle through the other spellings and writings of other documentation. Although honestly, I think I was just so happy to get to documentation that was in English so I could read and understand it rather than read the notes and look at the pictures on the side that I would have noticed anything, lol.


Finally, in a separate exhibition area, there was an embroidery piece by Cornelia Parker based on the Wikipedia page about the Magna Carta. This piece was embroidered by a number of persons throughout the justice system as well as members of the Embroiderer’s Guild (such as the picture on the left). This meant that like Wikipedia the embroidery was completed by many so the piece consisted of the thoughts of many and was embroidered by many who are impacted by the Magna Carta. What an interesting concept …

Another time where I learned something about myself, my environment and interestingly history, excellent!  I think the lesson I learned (again) was not to dismiss things before I experience them (well some things); as they may surprise me. 




Thursday 11 June 2015

I stopped singing

Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have - life itself 

~Walter Anderson~

There have been a number of things or themes that have crossed my mind over the last few months to blog about and I am not sure that I can separate them all but I will try to. So here it goes…

It is alarming to think that you can be totally unaware that you are unhappy until someone says something to you that lets you know that your behaviour has changed. I walked through the hallway one day and a lady who I didn’t even think noticed when I passed her door sometimes said to me; Are you okay Tara? I have not heard you singing in the hallways as much recently and you don’t seem yourself. Now that is not in quotation marks because with my memory the words may not be exact but just what the essence of it was. She shocked me! She made me stop to think and more than anything else she made me determined to start singing again.

During that period where I was feeling a little lost and unhappy a number of things happened; I started spending more time at home, immobile, more time watching rubbish that didn’t in any way move me and I stopped singing. I stopped singing. Well, come on, I went to rehearsals, I kept working and kept doing all the things that I thought were important. But so many things changed, I wasn’t reaching out to people anymore, I called home, I had conversations, I think I snapped at people more, my patience just wasn’t there. I wonder if people were giving me a wide berth and just thinking well we are certainly seeing her true side now. I stopped singing. I didn’t have the energy to cook, I didn’t have the appetite for food in the first place, it was so hard to get up and go. I stopped singing. It took a random person who I only say hi and howdy to occasionally to point out to me that I stopped singing.

How do you not see it? How do you not want to feel the difference in yourself? How do you sometimes fool yourself that no one notices any changes in your behaviour? I remember clearly one Saturday afternoon thinking, I should really leave home, I haven’t moved from here since Thursday. I had been very productive, I had sections of the chapter that I was working on finished but I had not left my flat in days. And those were gorgeous days and we don’t have many of those so I really should have enjoyed them. How did all that happen?

This certainly wasn't what I thought this blog was going to be about , but it is where it ended up. I want to say thanks to so many people for just being there during this time, those who didn't push, those who gave me a wide berth, those who just listened to me bitch whenever I needed to and certainly those people who took the most abuse and suffered through the tears as I pulled myself out of my funk, you all know who you are. But I also want to say a special thanks to that sweet lady who took the time to say that I had stopped singing. I stopped singing! 

Heaven knows, in fact everyone who has been in a funk, dealing with death or any number of emotions, thoughts, feelings or the inability to get going for whatever reason knows that recovering is not instantaneous. But the other day I caught myself humming as I walked down the hallway so I think I am getting there, slowly. 


If you hear a voice within you say 'you cannot paint,' then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced. 
~Vincent Van Gogh~



Friday 20 March 2015

Don't cry for me

Don't cry for me
Don't shed a tear
The time I shared with you will always be
And when I'm gone, please carry on
Don't cry for me 
~Lyrics - Don't cry for me ~ performed by Cece Winans~

One day it will be my turn

One day there will be no more me

But until that day comes I have to watch as people have their turn. I watch and wonder when people just are no longer there. No longer there laughing, smiling, crying or eating maple almond ice cream by the truck loads. It’s hard to watch; it’s hard to lose people; and it is really hard to say goodbye when you really don’t understand. I wonder about life, death, what it all means and selfishly I wonder when it will be my turn and what will be said about me. I think about what I loved most about that person, what impact they had on my life and what lessons I can learn from them. I try to assimilate the good and focus on them being out of pain or going to a better place, but how do I know that? Then the calls and visits start and all of the usual things will be said: “it was her time”; “when the Lord calls you”; “she is in a better place”; and … I can’t even remember the others right now. You are grateful for the support, hateful of the intrusion and sorry for feeling like a wretch because it isn’t you that is gone.

I have read blogs on loss. I have experienced loss and as I get older I will continue to experience it but no matter what, when or how, I will never know exactly what is expected of me or how I should feel, what I should say or do. I read other thoughts or listen to other people who have experienced loss and feel torn, hurt and small but I still don’t know what I feel. I am one of those people who did not experience loss early in life; I had all of my grandparents and a great grandparent until I was 21. So I was used to having everyone around and did not understand friends or acquaintances in school that had no parents, or lost someone they were close to. I couldn’t understand the grief or the pain. You think as you get older you will begin to understand or that having more time with them will make it easier but honestly, for me, I don’t get it yet and I do not think loss at any time is easy to swallow.

One day they are there, the next day they aren’t. Is it worse when you know it is coming or when it is totally unexpected? Is it better when you were not that close or when they meant everything to you? Do I just keep going to work? Do I give in and be an emotional wreck for a while and then move on? How do I express how I feel to others? How do I give support to family when they need it when I am not even certain how I feel? How in goodness name does anyone bury a child? How do you bury a parent? How do you move on? What do I feel?



This link  Don't cry for me - Cece Winans will lead you to the song that I turn to at times like this and are the lyrics referred to in the "quote". 

Monday 16 March 2015

Helplessness

It is hardly possible to build anything if frustration, bitterness and a mood of helplessness prevail. 
~Lech Walesa~

It is a rather immobilising feeling: helplessness. Immobilising because there is just nothing you can do and nothing seems right to say. It is uncomfortable, disheartening and yeah I know I have said it already but immobilising. You don’t know if to turn left or right or just curl up in the foetal position and cry.

I have previously lauded the great things about being away from home: enjoying new experiences, widening your own knowledge, challenging yourself to be successful away from the comforts of home. I am sure I have at some point in time mentioned some of the drawbacks: not being able to find the foods you want (black cake and pudding and souse for example) especially if you do not have the skills to cook them yourself and not being able to pop in by your granny for a bite to eat – why do they all seem so food focused? But I have never experienced this helplessness before or maybe just not as much as I have recently.

It has been a strange time for my family recently, that sort of time where everyone either pulls together or apart. You can only imagine that my cell phone bill is way up as I try to do the only thing I can in the situation because I am so bloody far and that is, just listening as everyone has their say or expresses their own feelings. But I can’t do anything else! I can’t get up and run over to help anyone, I can’t hold anyone’s hand or give them any other form of physical support like a hug. All I can do is listen, and I do not recall in my recent past ever feeling so damn helpless.

It hurts! And that hurt spreads; it spreads from just listening to dwelling on what you can’t do, what you can’t provide and it makes you feel inadequate; helpless. It spreads to every other facet of your life and immobilises you as you try to do the things you are supposed to but you can’t seem to stop thinking about everything else that is going on. All of your own problems: the inability to write, the lack of direction and the loneliness just seem so petty in the face of everything else that is happening to your family that you just stop.

But who do I tell how I feel? I hate burdening people with my own worries especially when each person you know has their own battles to fight. I hate feeling like every single time I open my mouth it is to complain about a situation or sound like I am the only person in trouble because I know that it is so not true. I miss sharing. I miss those days that I knew I could sit with friends and share. Share the good and the bad, the ridiculous and the onerous, the achievements and the setbacks, the past, present and dreams for the future. It is hard feeling helpless, and maybe just a little harder is feeling helpless and alone.


Thursday 5 February 2015

Keep on trucking

No one wants to drown. Drowning would be the worst. Cause everyone knows that feeling. That feeling, oh it's the worst...when you think you're drowning. 
~Dane Cook~

It is sometimes very difficult to keep yourself going and yet there are other times when getting everything done seems to be a breeze. Well…maybe not a breeze but for some reason no matter how hard you have to push you find the energy, determination and commitment to see it done.  This is so not one of those times. I am tired; just back from two weeks off and tired. This review process is depressing.

In recent reports on this very blog, Tara claimed, and I emphasise “CLAIMED” that she found some direction. Stupse! What direction? I feel like I am soundly back in a rudderless boat but now it is even more urgent that I find the damn oars to set me on the correct path. This is SECOND year!! Fretting about this is not going to make it better though and neither is feeling betrayed. What I need is a good dose of self- motivation and drive to set me on the right path. But it nah easy! It’s just not easy to keep being tossed back in the water after putting in what you deemed to be a significant effort.

I feel like I have given a lot; a lot of time, a lot of thought and a lot of frigging reading and effort into knowing what my research is about and determining what my overall aim is but you go to the review session and boom! All that effort, all that time, all that energy feels like it was a waste. I want to believe that I have learnt something from it; I want to believe that this is all part of the process and that it can only get better. I really want to believe all of that but I have no proof. None! What I have is a sinking feeling that it will never come together; the conceptual model, the research aims, research questions, research objectives, hypotheses whatever they should be, I just can’t seem to put my finger on them. It feels hopeless, I feel helpless, I want to go home…*pouts*.

I know, I know, every time I feel like this, people, friends, colleagues all say: Don’t worry Tara, this is normal and you know you are smart enough to pull through this and do well in the end. I understand that they are all trying to be supportive and helpful and I want to believe them when they do say it, and goodness knows that I want it to be true. But this time I just don’t feel it. I am hoping my motivation comes again soon.

I promise I will pull myself out of the dumps at some point but isn’t it amazing how being determined (attitude) makes such a big difference?






Thursday 29 January 2015

An Old Debate: Instant vs. Growing Attraction

I don't have a type. But one thing I can say from my dating experience is that physical attraction will only take you so far. So you definitely have to have a strong intellectual connection as well 
~Jesse Metcalfe~

I recently had a conversation with someone (you know the usual); one of those conversations that has been on your mind and made you have a good long think. What makes any of these two better than the other? Why do some people value instant attraction over growing affection?

I am cynical enough or maybe I am just scarred enough to slightly distrust instant attraction, largely because those people that you are instantly attracted to are those people who attract you on looks alone. So what if they are hot? I am not denying the pull of someone who is just pleasing to the eye, but how many times has one conversation with that person made them so very unattractive after that? Please, please, please do not kill me and do not get all up in arms, because I have also experienced, heard of and respect the opposite situation where that first conversation and all the other experiences that follow the initial attraction only make the attraction and affection deepen.  I have a number of good looking friends, male and female who I am sure would knock me out if I didn’t think that good looking people are worth the time.  Despite my own not so good experiences I still appreciate instant attraction and as with all opposites there is something to be said about each side of this argument.

There are many who argue that the opposite is not possible. In fact, some argue that people are always only drawn to others by their looks. I completely disagree!! Have you ever sat in a group of people having a conversation, listening to their views on a variety of sometimes innocuous, sometimes serious, sometimes downright hilarious topics and been drawn to one person? Not drawn to their looks, but drawn to them? Sometimes it is not even that the person speaks up often, but there is just something about them, how they view the world and how they speak about it that starts to make you see them differently? We are not only drawn to the physical, well I can’t say it for everyone, but many people are not only drawn to the physical. Sometimes affection and attraction and oftentimes love grow from something very simple: maybe a conversation, maybe a shared passion, maybe a shared experience; but does that make what those people feel any less real than those whose attraction was instant?

That is where the conversation I had started; an accusation that because feelings grew rather than there being an instant attraction they were somehow less, somehow not natural and therefore maybe not right. Is it necessary to think that any one of these situations is better than the other? That the way feelings develop makes one situation more worthy than the other? Or is it right to think that one of these situations is more likely to be successful in the long run when it comes to love and relationships?

I don’t think so… what about you?






#instantattraction #growing affection #anolddebate

Thursday 22 January 2015

A Funny Story

He that loves reading has everything within his reach
~William Godwin~

I had the most interesting experience recently that left me wondering if I should shake my head in disgust at myself, laugh uproariously at myself or just chalk it up to a sign of the times.

I was so excited about not doing any work over the Christmas break; no academic reading, no tutorials and no regular trips to the office… WONDERFUL!! Just a few weeks to balance myself out, remind myself why I was fighting this fight, enjoy the little things, eat plenty and read for pleasure … hmmmm … there is a sound I want to make here but how do I describe it? It is accompanied by my eyes rolling into the back of my head, and is similar to that sound a woman makes when sinking her teeth into a chocolate when she really really needs it. I hope you can hear it now.

Reading used to be one of my favourite past times. There is something about sinking into someone else’s story when it is well written that is fantastic. I could get lost for hours in a book. I would get lost in that story and the images in my mind to accompany that story were so much better than TV for me. With books, you get to see the inner workings of the characters’ minds, not just see what they are experiencing or rely on their facial expressions. You get to read their thoughts, experience everything with them and despite the fact that television can still afford you this experience in its own way I was always more of a reader.  I am one of those persons who can read a book and burst out laughing, cry, and experience a world of emotions as the characters that I grow attached to do. There is just something about reading a good book. I think reading used to be one of the few things that would stop me from eating. Unheard of I know, but not for too long because the headache would stop me from reading so I would have to get up and eat with the book in my hand to prevent that.

Anyway a friend has lent me the Harry Potter series and I went home all excited about reading it from the beginning having read them all before (ages ago) and seeing what the connections were from book one to the final book. If there is one series of books I enjoyed it was this one; they had a definitive beginning and end, and were not just drawn out for being drawn out sake. I grew up with the characters (don’t mind they were younger than me) and it was pleasure to read something so fantastical but still very down to earth in its way.

So I set the scene; (lol) turned off the lights in the rest of the flat, checked the fridge door to make sure I had it closed, checked to make sure the oven and the central heating were off, lit my candles, turned off the bedroom light and cosied up in my bed and picked up the book, all anticipatory. Then I realised, wait a minute this is a real book not an e-book, there is no back light, I am not swiping pages here, I have to turn actual paper pages so I can’t see without the bedroom light. I think I burst out laughing at first thinking how stupid it was to do that and then I mulled it over and wondered “when last have I read a paper book?” I bought three books already for the season and read them all on my phone (twice). It was a little ridiculous but it was also just a little (I hope) stupid. I knew it was a real book, I knew I needed the light but I had just gone through my usual routine without really thinking about it and that included turning the bedroom light off. So the next question was, did I want to read this book enough to get out of the bed which was now a little warmer with me in it and turn on the light?


What a conundrum!!


Laughter is an instant vacation 
~Milton Berle~


Sunday 18 January 2015

New Year's Greetings ... Defying Gravity

I think I'll try
Defying Gravity 
And you can't pull me down 
~ Defying Gravity from the musical Wicked~ 

It is 2015. Happy New Year to everyone!! Sometimes that sounds so trite, but I want you all to know that if it was possible to wish happiness, productivity and success into each of your lives that is what I would do for you. However, what I hope we are realising as we grow is that we cannot only rely on wishes but we have to put in the hard work, perseverance and patience (all the corny, responsible, boring stuff) to make sure we see our dreams come true. 

That wasn’t quite how I wanted to get started. New Year time usually makes you reflective and it is so cool to be able to look back over a year of blogs and see what I have done and what I have professed to learn and remind myself of some of the experiences I have had. I think my first observation is that I really need to be more consistent with my blogs; I had a total of what 18 or so last year (shame). Anyway … let’s talk about the Holiday Season…

The Highlights of My Season
Hmmm … Last Christmas was the first one away from home and I talked about all the things I missed. I didn’t talk about the beginning of new traditions though and one of the new traditions I am enjoying is my Christmas Skype calls. If there is one day you will get as many of my family members together as possible it is Christmas Day so getting a Skype Call from my granny’s and my auntie’s house where the congregations occur is always wonderful and eventful and a lovely tradition that I hope continues. I get to talk to everybody, (especially those people I wouldn’t regularly chat with but still want to see) I get to feel included and it makes me feel great to see everyone all together and note that the older traditions are still holding strong.

This Christmas however, I was thrilled to be allowed to share baby’s first Christmas with family in England. Very few of us actually remember our first Christmas but I LOVED being there to observe his first. Life is so simple when you are wee; (do you hear the Scottish sneaking in?) you get loads of presents from people you hardly remember, you enjoy the wrapping and the boxes more than you enjoy the actual presents (or so it would appear) and everything is fun as you are usually the centre of attention. Made me want to be the child on occasion, but more than that it was so wonderful to be there and be part of the reason that child was smiling so broadly and gurgling so happily.

I LOVE swings!!! How is it that I was so blissfully unaware of the number of parks around with beautiful trails, and SWINGS!!! I have been on swings three times throughout the Christmas period; twice in England (see why it is important to have children around?) and once in Scotland and each experience was brilliant!!! Swinging makes you feel so free, uninhibited, childlike and happy. I always get off of a swing with the biggest grin on my face and feeling wonderful. So I have had that experience thrice across the season and located the park nearest to me to make sure I don’t miss out on that simple and happy feeling too much.

I am hoping this joy and relaxation will carry me through the first part of the year at least. I hope that you can sit and think about the highlights of your season and smile and I look forward to re-reading more than 18 blogs at the beginning of 2016.



I couldn't resist giving you a taste of the song that is playing in my head whenever I think about being on a swing :) Have a listen to the link below... I promise it is worth it!!
Defying Gravity - Barefoot @ the Symphony